Newho, the back of one's cupboard (or the half of one's shelving & wardrobe unit) can be a beautiful yet surreal, reminiscence-causing area. The photographs, the keepsakes, the souvenirs and those no1-knows-i-saved-this items can hold an entire lifetime within them when you've not even lived half of your life =D..
Well, let's just say amidst all the sweet memories made & touching experiences had..there are the inevitable bunch of grand-hiccups down the road .. the let-me-sing-loudly-to-myself-to-forget-that-ever-happened twists to our otherwise sunny bright journey.. And when you've had your fair share of these hiccups, or are bombarded by them one after the other for a signficant amount of time......... you become a sort've of "nostalgia-phobe".
You begin to dread missing anything ... there's a whole lotta bitter in that jar of sweet.. the emo in you is heavier on the see-saw than you're happy-go-lucky side.... you're still living out the part where it'll all balance and become a "mixed bag" or a series of "ups and downs"..... it's still a waiting period & you'd much rather anticipate & hope for the result uphill than cherish the effort at the bottom.
No surprises if I can relate to any of that.. although thankfully, I seem to be gradually making peace with the entire bitter part and actually begin to enjoy it as the unique aftertaste to AMPLE sweet I've had in my life so far Alhamdulilah =)..
Here's some post-appropriate lyrics from "Yaad" by Shehzad Roy (which is his only piece that I like):
Yaad
Woh jo hum mein tum mein qarar tha,
Woh jo hum mein tum mein qarar tha,
Tumhe yaad ho k na yaad ho.
Jo na mit sakey wahi pyar tha
Jo na mit sakey wahi pyar tha
Tumhe yaad ho k na yaad ho.
Woh naey gilay woh shikayatein
Woh maze maze ki hikayathein
Kabhi rooththe kabhi maanthe
Woh sitham kabhi woh inayathein
Mujhe sab hay yaad
Zara zara..
Mujhe sab hay yaad
Zara zara..
Tumhe yaad ho k na yaad ho.
Tumhe yaad ho k na yaad ho.
Woh jo hum mein tum mein qarar tha,
Woh jo hum mein tum mein qarar tha,
Tumhe yaad ho k na yaad ho.
Woh jo din thay kitnay ajeeb thay,
Haan bus aik se naseeb thay.
Kay judaa na houn yahi khauwf tha,
Kabhi hum bhi itna qareeb thay.
Woh jo waada meinay wafa kiya,
Woh jo waada meinay wafa kiya,
Tumhe yaad ho k na yaad ho.
Jo na mit sakey wahi pyar tha
Jo na mit sakey wahi pyar tha
Tumhe yaad ho k na yaad ho.
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....dewy memories aside, g'nite folks! ;)
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